Quicksilver

Superwoman

I got caught up in the Women's Liberation movement in a way. When I was growing up, I thought my choice was: be like Mom or be like Dad. Well, Mom had five kids to herd, all day, every day. She was a stay-at-home Mom. She worked hard and we had it really good. She loved it. I didn't think I would. Dad worked hard too but I didn't see it so much because he was at work.

It seemed to me that the emotional hardships of being a mother were a bigger burden than being an out-in-the-world career person. (I was an empath then too but didn't realize it. Tried to run!) I was more comfortable with tasks that one could actually complete and file away, rather than repetitive tasks (Hang up your coat. Hang up your coat. Hang up your coat.) and emotional drain to boot.

I chose my father's path of getting into corporate America and climbing ladders. I was a woman in the computer industry in the late 70's and early 80's. I did not have an easy climb, but I did it and it still felt easier than what I perceived as my mother's lot.

Unfortunately, in the process of trying to be my father and work in a man's world, I unplugged my emotional self. I have since come to realize that this is the real gift of feminine energy, emotional connection... to self, to others, to All That Is. I was severed. I've had a whale of a time re-establishing those links.

I think this has happened to many women. I think the Supermoms get all their juggling going and then wonder... What happened to ME? Who AM I? They've built a dam to wall in all that emotion that they just don't have time for and then, the dam bursts. Call it menopause or maybe the dam leaks pretty seriously once a month for a few days, then we cork it and get back to paddling.

It's twisted. We've twisted ourselves. There's not a thing wrong with working women, working mothers or stay-at-home moms, as long as we protect the fact that we ARE women. We ARE different from men and there are damned good reasons for it. A world of men only would not work. (Look where letting them have so much [apparent] control has already brought us. hehe)

05.25.2001

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