Quicksilver

Study Hall

How I actually view it is this... My human self on this planet is an aspect of my whole spiritual self (higher self), and is in the middle of a curriculum for which it was designed. The parameters were set and I incarnated at the set time, in the set place. The rest goes as it may here in the lab, although special people (from spirit/soul circles) and hints (synchronicities, unexplained affinities/fears, karmic events) have come through my higher self's connections to help with the curriculum as needed.

My learning flows where I go with it and I feel a responsibility to help others with their own curriculums, when possible. It's like signing up for a college class. There are things to be learned and a guide for learning them. The actual depth of learning and application will likely differ per individual student. Study groups are often helpful.

I was not awake to my higher spirit until recently. Under my current curriculum, it would have skewed the training I was getting from my mundane experiences. I guess I'd call that prep-school for the mundane conscious self. (Knee-Jerk Reactions 101?) My higher self knew when it was time for my conscious self to awaken and when I was ready to accept it, albeit reluctantly, slowly and intermittently at first.

I believe that all the other aspects I previously created for learning purposes (past lives) were each dissolved and their experiences recorded, integrated. My overall curriculum is always adjusted to fill in learning gaps or to investigate new avenues. What I refer to as my higher self is my essence, the spark of me that is in tune with the collective consciousness and yet it is still my individual identity. That is actually Griffen, containing the full knowledge of who I am and all iterations I've created. My human conscious self is my current contact point here on this plane at this time and I have my birth name. For my own reasons of focus, I use my spirit name, Griffen, in spirit discussion places.

I'm not consciously one with my higher self all the time. At this point, it's a matter of discipline not to do it, because that full contact is a marvelous thing and there's a pull to just stay there. I think I'm not yet capable of maintaining full engagement in this 3D consciousness as well as on that plane, all the time. Short periods can either charge me up or wear me out. Depends on the activity. So I am not managing the body well when I'm connected in that way. I need to practice and learn more about that.

The level of contact depends on what is needed as I go along. The separation feels necessary when dealing across the lines between awakened and non-awakened spirits. Otherwise I may forget how hard it can be to accept one's own awakening.

I will say again that this is how I view it. Words just do not cover it. Conceptual analysis just can't paint a true picture of it. It's outside those mundane means. Besides, I dare say that it feels differently to each soul based on who they are as individuals and their experiences, although there are likely similarities if we could compare notes.

07.23.2001

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