Origin One question kept nagging at me after I started to read many spiritual writings in earnest and even while I was writing this one. I kept seeing theories that explained how we could heal ourselves and each other. I read over and over that we are here to grow and learn and help each other address our wounds, spiritual wounds acquired through living in this physical plane, wounds from previous incarnations and such. I absolutely believe this. My question was, how did we get wounded and in need of an education in the first place? Why did we incarnate that first time? I mean, if we are all part of the Oneness (and I certainly believe we are), then didn't we already have access to everything and didn't we already know all there was to know? If we were whole and perfect there... Why leave it? This really bugged me. I was getting answers to everything downline from the initial 'whatever' that brought us into being, but nothing ever said "Why." Even the Bible starts out with "In the beginning, God created... " but it doesn't say why he did it. Most other versions of creation do the same thing. If we're all a part of this, at least one of us surely must know the Why. However, I could find nothing on this topic that made sense to me or went back far enough to answer this fundamental, starting question. So, I mulled. The question would surface and I'd find no answer and I'd tuck the question away again. Then, an answer finally occurred. I mean this in an almost literal sense. I would not have been surprised to actually see a light bulb appear above my head. I now know why we are here, why we started this, how we got to where we are and where we are going, in a way. Maybe you won't agree with my explanation or the answer will not seem sufficient to you, but it was a huge relief to me. I think I know why we left the wholeness, the Oneness, to come into these bodies and get all wounded and work toward healing and getting in tune with the Oneness again. In the beginning... there was the physical universe, the vacuum of space, the stars, the planets, galaxies and such. It was indeed an expansion of explosive magnitude for it began as a Oneness of infinite mass and energy. It was a singular point that blew apart, likely from its own density, and spread out to set in motion the laws of the physical universe as we are learning to understand them. I can go back no further than the singular point of Oneness for I cannot yet comprehend 'infinity' and therefore could not comprehend what might contain it. That question will have to wait a while longer. At some point, as the Universe became stable, at least enough to function under the regularity of its own laws, it became conscious, self-aware. On the highest and broadest level, it realized... "I am." But then of course, with contemplation, other questions follow: What am I? What do I mean? What purpose do I serve? These answers could not be found in the physical laws. There was order but no deeper meaning in gravity, orbits, expansion and contraction, or star energy. So far it was simply reaction and function within strict constraints such as uniformity of motion and the like. The will to know forced the Oneness to create. It had to create ways to discover the answers to its own questions. "I want to know who and what I am. I will test, experiment, venture." This was the first 'act' not solely in response to physical laws. It was initiated action. The first thought of "I am" prompted it, but when it became action, it became Will and creativity for the purpose of discovery. It could not test and experiment in the vastness of space with only parts of itself flung to infinity and those merely following the laws at work there. It decided to incarnate, to create new forms, which could act with the same sort of Will sprung from its own curiosity. The first stages of creation were crude. Simple cell life forms moved independently but they did not contemplate. They mostly just reacted to each other and the environment without thought. They were very little more than the components of the Universe already in motion. Even so, they were more than chemical and mineral. More complex forms were developed. More complex species, such as the animal kingdom, could make choices, but still they were driven by instincts and mostly reactive. They could not truly initiate anything. They would not be able to answer the questions. Each species still did not think of itself in the same individual way that the Oneness was experiencing. All whales thought as one Whale. All deer thought as one Deer. All spiders thought as one Spider. Even these thoughts were very simple, concerning basic survival and needs. Finally the Oneness, the initial spark that was still Everything, created from itself human forms, learning from previous trials. It learned to replicate or synthesize Will, to instill it in individual units or individual forms. Each human would be given a spark of the whole but could operate independently and was yet... part of, the same as... the One. All of the creations of the Oneness were manifested from itself and therefore, even though there were independent iterations of itself in operation, it was all still from the same infinity. The Oneness began to think of itself as We, an infinite One. As we progress, we expand our knowledge of who we are but in the process we also create it, influence it. Thus we are the collective consciousness of the Oneness, because we are all linked into the same singularity that still wants to know "Who am I?" Yet in all these millenia the Oneness has discovered that the act of discovery itself may be as valuable or more valuable than an answer to its own initial questions. And so, we continue to evolve. Getting a firm answer would require all progress, all change, to come to a halt, so we could make a clean, accurate assessment. We, as individual sparks, as independent spirits, can tap into the Oneness for information, but the original question has no absolute answer. The answer changes continuously as we change ourselves and the Universe around us. So, for an answer, we must change the question... "Who am I or Who are we... so far?" Understand that even my own individual concept of this origin has now changed our collective consciousness. Each time you have a new thought, even if it's only new to you, you change what is. No matter how similar you may be to countless others, you are still the one and only you that there has ever been or shall ever be and therefore everything you think and do is unique to you but adds to our collective experience. Understand too what the Oneness knows, that in attempts to discover, we often create. After all, the quest for information spawned the creation that made discovery possible. In this way, it could be said that discovery IS the act of creation. Think about that for a minute. How many times have scientists been looking for one thing, only to find or develop something else, something new, something previously undiscovered? Their experiments have created these new concepts, these new laws or facts or features of our Universe. In this way, the Oneness created us. It sought answers to questions but in the process it had to create procedures and experiments. These ultimately created us and we're still learning and growing. We are both the scientist and the experiment. We may expand infinity and do so for eternity, even if we bring everything to an end as we understand it and it all begins again. Every moment will always be different, no matter how many times we repeat a cycle, no matter how many simultaneous instances we may create. We are all creating together, just by wondering, just by being. As we collectively realize this, for this is relatively new information, we move into a new phase of evolution. When we become aware of our Oneness and then realize that we are no longer searching for an absolute truth but rather creating our discoveries together... Where shall we go from here? From where we are, how can we imagine a whole world of whole people, a universe of unlimited possibilities without fear, shame, regret but filled with understanding, compassion, and yes, love? We will. We are imagining it right now and in doing so... we are creating it, together. (Origin)

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