Wenn & Wolf Tales

wwe0720

Session Start: Jul 14 1997 (from log, needs work - more prose/description, less dialogue?)

Wolf stood with his arm around Wenn, both of them watching the newly added log catch in the hearth. He shifted his gaze from the fire to watch the golden light dance on her face.

"You're being too quiet. Something amiss?"

Wenn looked up into his eyes. "Nothing to add."

As he caught the gray sadness in her blue eyes, Wolf felt the weight of the day descend upon him. Wenn turned to him and stretched to steal a brief kiss then could do naught else, but hold him close. His arms went around her as well, clinging tightly to her. He bent to return a kiss to her forehead then just held her, resting his cheek on her soft hair.

After long minutes, Lord Wolf kissed the top of her head and sighed softly into the silence around them. Feeling much the same sentiment, Wenn muttered against his chest, "Oh Wolf, what am I to do with you, or more so, without you..."

He leaned back from her with confusion on his face. "Without me? Am I going away, never to return?"

"Ever farther you drift. Ever longer you are away from me. And so it seems to bode no time for us."

"I will agree that ever more does life and its matters keep me away from you, though I would that it were otherwise."

"Wanting does not change what is, for if it did, we would be in this world all to ourselves, at least for my part."

"Still the future is yet unwritten and none know what it holds. And... if we had been alone, to ourselves, we would not have met. For was it not within Camelot that we did first meet and upon a quest at that?"

"Aye, twas Camelot that brought us together and now she helps tear us apart."

"Only if we, you and I, allow her to. For none controls us but ourselves."

"But the pack, my love..." She looked away from him to the moonlight streaming through the windows.

Lord Wolf continued to watch her instead. "What of them?"

"Look at the moon high in the sky."

"Aye, I need not look to know and yet... would you be free of me so soon?"

"No, I would have you never leave, but it grows late."

"Am I the bad pup, to be driven from my home and into the night? Driven from the side of the one I love?"

"No, the good alpha, who has business to tend to outside these walls and away from his love."

"The Pack does not live nor die by one lone wolf as you well know." His hand stretched out to let his fingers gently brush her hair. "Wenndolyne, there has been a sadness about you this eve... nae, this whole day me thinks."

"Nae, longer than that." Her voice trailed off to a whisper as she looked down to her hands clutched together.

"Aye, longer than that it would seem." He withdrew his hand from her. "How long have you hidden this from me? How long have I been blind to this?" He started to reach for her again but stayed his hands, not knowing if she would wish his touch just now. "Were we not to share all?"

She looked up at him and voiced quietly, "You know I cannot hide well from you."

"Yet you have, it would seem, saying naught of this sadness til now."

"Always too much else to be done. Too much else to speak it or.. to be noticed."

"Do I know so little of you?"

"How could you know me? What time is there to know me?

"There is always time for you." He began to pace. "Nothing, NOTHING here matters without you! All that I have here is not mine, it is OURS!" He paused then turned to her again, lowering his voice. "Without you, it is no more than grains of sand slipping through the fingers of dreams that once were dreamt... for it means nothing without you here beside me."

Wenndolyne was slightly shaken by his tone. His sentiment was sure enough but her experience of late had been quite different. She spoke quietly. "So oft it feels as though it all rests upon my shoulders. I look for you and find you not."

"Aye, but we do share the load. Though I am not here, still I worry and shoulder the load as well. Even if away, a part of me is here and.." He sighed. "Tis difficult to explain. I know how it must look to you, always here and none to turn to." He sank into his chair. "Aye, it would look the same to me were our places reversed, I would guess."

Wenn knelt by him and looked up. "You sound angry with me, as if I do not know your burden."

"Angry with you? Perhaps, but more so with myself. You cannot know my burdens for I do not share them and in that I wrong you greatly." He shook his head and leaned to brush her cheek. "I am sorry dearest. Seems what I accuse you of, I do myself. For that I am doubly sorrowful."

She looked up to him with tears slipping down her cheeks. Wolf rose from his chair and walked back to stand before the hearth. He whispered mostly to himself. "I do not deserve you."

Wenn stood too and slowly drifted toward him, ever drawn but still saddened. "I cannot see a help for this."

"Nor can I, I fear."

"Nor could I bear to leave you."

"Nor do I want to hurt you more than I have."

Wenndolyne stepped in close and slipped her arms around him tightly. She now feared his tone and his words. She regretted that she did not hold her tongue. She never meant for him to be so upset. She didn't know what she meant, only that it needed expression.

Wolf did not wrap his arms around her as he so wanted to. He would not allow himself. "You would be better without me, I think. Your life would be far easier than it is."

She shook her head slowly. "In truth, I have considered that but---"

"Then I think you have need to consider again, for there is only heartache ahead of us, I fear."

"But I cannot see past you. I cannot think past you."

Lord Wolf sighed heavily and stepped back from her. "Then I must remove the obstruction from your sight, as well as from your mind and heart."

Wenndolyne gasped and blinked away tears to look wide eyed at him. "No..."

As she watched his jaw flex, a single tear slipped free and rolled down his face. He softly whispered, "Yes."

"Wenndolyne 's choked voice cried out again "No!"

"There is no other way... for I cannot bear to see that you hurt so when I must be away or to know that you long for me when I cannot be by your side." He looked away again to the fire. "I will cause you no more pain. You deserve better than I."

She dropped to her knees and grabbed his hands, resting her damp cheek there. She shook her head and muttered over and over "No..."

Wolf grasped her hands and gently lifted her to her feet. "Wenn... Love, there is no other way. You have said as much yourself." With that, he reached out and gently lifted the pendant necklace from her.

"NO!" she screamed as he quickly moved the Pendant from her reach and stepped away.

His voice choked out, "You are free. Go." then he turned away, unable to watch her leave.

She stood at his back, tears streaming, hands wringing over her chest, where the pendant had been. "I care not about the shielding! or the wolf form! or extended life!!" She sucked in a sobbing breath then with mostly air and tears, she added. "I care only for you, my beloved Wolf. Please... please do not send me away."

Wolf reached to the mantle, bracing there. He listened to her, each word stabbing him like a knife thrust deeply into his heart. "YOU MUST!" he forced from his tight throat then slammed his fist against the mantle. He clutched the pendant so tightly that it cut into his palm.

"I cannot. I cannot leave you." Her watery view of him was made no better by blinking, as more tears followed. "Do you think that removing the pendant also removes you from my heart?"

His own sobbing was evident as his shoulders and voice shook, "Why must you torment yourself by remaining?"

Wenndolyne wrapped her arms around herself and leaned to rest her forehead against his back. "Because to never see you again..." She shivered and swallowed hard to continue. "...would be worse than death... Min Feill Sha`naigh."

Wolf laughed a hoarse laugh through his raw throat as her words flayed him to the quick. Wenn stepped back from him and watched him turn to her again, tears running down his face as well.

"Min Feill Sha`naigh..." he echoed. "How you honor me yet curse yourself, my beloved."

Her shaky hands wiped at her cheeks. "My Beloved Wolf... I have no real choice in this... for my heart and my soul are both lost in you."

"Nor do I have a choice." He stood up straight, squaring his shoulders. "No. Choice." He dried his eyes then looked into hers. "You leave me none, you know."

Wenn straightened too and now feared he might send her away through some magical means but it was less fearsome than the prospect of leaving him on her own. As Wolf stepped to her and raised his hand, she made one last plea. "Please, m'lord... send me not away." She searched his eyes as he placed the pendant and chain back around her neck.

"Ask what you want of me." He whispered. "Say what you will. For I cannot give you more than you will take nor offer less than I am. In you, I have found me, till death or fates shall part us, my beloved Wenn."

She sighed and folded into his arms, hugging him tightly. "Oh My Beloved Wolf... What shall we do with each other?"

"Love til time does cease to exist..." He smiled, albeit weakly. "or until we have another option."

"Tis a good thing we have all time. It may take that long to get to know one another."

"Aye but that in itself is a good thing, I think, for you are very hard to understand at times, My Love."

Wenndolyne giggled softly and raised a brow. "Me?! What of you, m'Lord Wolf?

"Me? Why I am as easy to understand as the rising sun. I just... am."

"I can barely fathom what you are let alone who."

Wolf smiled broadly and Wenn as well, as the crisis, for now, seemed to have passed. He softly kissed the top of Wenn's head while a wolf's cry echoed in the distance. He looked up and sighed then gazed back down to her. Cupping her cheeks in his hands, he softly brought his lips to hers. Wenndolyne closed her eyes and moaned beneath his lips even though she heard the wolf's cry too. He allowed himself to linger in the kiss a moment longer then withdrew to whisper, "I must..."